It is a popular subject, freedom to choose, but women are allowed to forget there are other solutions. It is murder because the fetuses heart is beating. Something I was never told. I know God forgave me for mine but it doesn’t take away the pain. A woman psychiatrist I had said, “the pain will never go away. There will be brief times when you won’t feel it.” I remember one time when I was eleven weeks pregnant, I was distraught because my husband was insisting I get an abortion. I went to the clinic and all the professionals were backing him up. They sent me to a Chinese Doctor who examined me and said, “I can do it.” I was horrified, so I kept the baby and that was Paul, my second son. Needless to say, I was very distraught and became depressed. It was the only time I resisted all the conformists.

Think of the good things that happened in the past. Why don’t I want to? Look at what I wrote;

My life was relatively happy…

Guilt is the cloak of deception,

So that you can go on.

I’m always taking the blame. Like the Mother of all Things. What’s worse is seeing the truth.

Ambivalence is acceptable. It’s the nature of the human being. Anybody who uses it or exploits it for their own gain is wrong.