I doomed myself to a life of loneliness and abuse. Did I think that was all I deserved?

When I was with Joe I was so angry at my family. I showed my rage. I was pregnant and when Susan called me I called her a bitch instead of saying I made the baby, I’m going to be responsible for it. I didn’t have the courage to follow through inspite of Joan’s hatred towards me. She abandoned her baby so she made a substitute of mine.